{"id":135355,"date":"2020-05-26T11:32:26","date_gmt":"2020-05-26T08:32:26","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.ghafla.com\/ke\/?p=135355"},"modified":"2020-05-26T12:41:49","modified_gmt":"2020-05-26T09:41:49","slug":"secular-music-caused-me-depression-size-8-opens-up","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.ghafla.co.ke\/ke\/secular-music-caused-me-depression-size-8-opens-up\/","title":{"rendered":"\u201cSecular music caused me depression,\u201d Size 8 opens up"},"content":{"rendered":"

We all have a past and we all have a story to tell. Kenyan songbird, Size 8 was known for her secular music before she gave her life to God and turned to the gospel world of music.<\/p>\n

However, as much as she seemed composed and having figured it all out while in the secular world, Size 8 was actually sinking deeper into the miseries of life.<\/p>\n

Through her documentary<\/a> aired on NTV, the gospel artiste told of her story of fame, how she would look up to American icon, Beyonce Internationally and fellow gospel artiste, Wahu Kagwi locally.<\/p>\n

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Best of friends, Size 8 (left) and Wahu Kagwi (right)<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

Beyonc\u00e9 was her source of energy, her source of inspiration both in terms of costumes and performances for most of her music gigs.<\/p>\n

Also read: Shots fired? Size 8\u2019s reveals what would make her work with a Gengetone artist<\/a><\/p>\n

Actually, Size 8 worked day and night to be like the Grammy Award winner.<\/p>\n

I used to work hard. Beyonce and Wahu Kagwi were my role models. I would check out Beyonce\u00b4s performances and get consumes like hers. If you compare my secular performances and Beyonce\u00b4s they were the same.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

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Size 8<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

The turmoil<\/h2>\n

No sooner, did mama Wambo achieve her dreams, that life started taking a wild turn for her – depression in the face of success.<\/p>\n

Yes, she was a secular artiste but never was she an alcoholic. But soon as depression came in, nothing ever worked out.<\/p>\n

Size 8 was a big name in the entertainment industry but not one of her relationships ever saw the light of day.<\/p>\n

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Size 8 with daughter, Wambo<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

Also read: DJ Mo and Size 8: Celebrity relationships done right<\/a><\/p>\n

She was famous but deep inside, was a wounded young girl who just did not have a place to seek refuge.<\/p>\n

Immediately I got what I wanted, I started slipping into depression. I can never explain it. All that time I was a secular artiste, I never took alcohol. Naenda kwa bar Sina Tabu<\/em> hapo mbele nakunywa pekee yangu. My relationships are not working. I was glowing everywhere but I am not myself. I\u00b4m so under pressure to perform better than what I used to do or previous performance.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

The scriptures say: To whom more is given, more is expected.<\/p>\n

That phrase best explains what what the Kenyan singer was going through, because the more famous she became, the more the pressure mounted on her, to deliver.<\/p>\n

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Gospel artiste, Size 8 Reborn<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

But so did her circle of friends grow smaller. She became a mystery to her own self, she would look back to her high-school days and this is not the product she had foreseen. No!<\/p>\n

I didn\u00b4t have real friends and I started becoming a person I didn\u00b4t really like. Remembering that happy girl who was in State House Girls so bubbly and I missed that born again girl – Linet Munyali. I just miss being loved for Linet and not for Size 8.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Conversion<\/h2>\n

Linet\u00b4s deep desire to give her life to God was an aspiration only told to her younger sister and Sauti Sol\u00b4s Bien Aime Baraza.<\/p>\n

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Sauti Sol\u00b4s lead vocalist, Bien<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

However, the Kenyan boy band member felt utterly disappointed by her , trying to understand how she was walking away from something she had build through sweat and blood over the years.<\/p>\n

He shared:<\/p>\n

I was so disappointed with her because I\u00b4ve never seen someone walk away from money. Ni kama alichukua million 50 akaflush down the toilet.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Watch<\/h2>\n